Decisions Decisions

That's what I've been up to.

School like I mentioned before, is crazy. Especially this past week.

This project I have that is due the day after Spring break is taking longer than I would have ever imagined. Of course it doesn't help that I am being like super detailed and particular. But still. I've even had a good school friend helping me along with the whole thing.

A while ago, in the back of mind I had frequently thought... If I really don't get this done in time, I won't be able to go to TN on the mission trip.

I didn't think that would actually have to happen until this week. I could NOT decide for the life of me if I should go or not. If I did... I would have to tell everyone no for everything for 2 weeks in a row.. the week before(in order to get everything done) and the week I'm gone.

I've gone back and forth and back and forth for the past week, trying to decide what to do. My project was coming along better than I had anticipated, so it gave me some hope.

Anyways. My final decision was made tonight. I am not going.

Am a little jealous that 5 of the girls I went to FL with are going? Yes. But I feel like I need to stay home and catch up on everything I have, do this project, and finally catch up on sleep.

I've never known what stress was until this past week it's weird. I usually don't stress out much about school/tests/etc. but this week has been horrible. I'm usually like whatever and sort of kind of laid back about it all. But not lately... I haven't even been myself, I feel like. Just ask my poor family and classmates who have to deal with me. :)

In fact, one of the ladies I sit next to in class told me the other week(after I probably went on and on to her), "Girl, you're going to die of a heart attack before you're 30!"

So even though I think I will regret not going on this trip, and all my friends will have a blast, I think I will actually enjoy my time at home. My mom and I are going shopping a day, Bridget's staying here a couple of days, I'm hanging out with friends who aren't going... it will be great. And then maybe if I catch up on homework I'll be able to have a little bit more of a social life for a few weeks after break....? I don't know, but I hope so.

OK. If you just read all my ramblings on my decision to not go to TN, I'm sorry. :)

2 more things thing.

--I'M NOW ON SPRING BREAK! :) [In case you haven't figured that out by now]

--I'm realizing how incredibly blessed I really am.

Love, Wendi.

*Hopefully I'll be back over break with some exciting/more interesting things.